Wow,
it’s been a while since my last entry. I never was very good at maintaining a
steady journal or regular scripture study, and my New Year’s resolution was to
(try to) be more of a finisher, so there you are.
But for
the first time in the longest time, I’ve completed the entire First Book of
Nephi, starting with chapter 7. Usually I stop by the time I finish the story
of the Brass Plates or the Tree of Life, and I’ll bet more people read Nephi’s
story than all the other stories in the Book of Mormon. I think it’s safe to
say he holds the record.
Anyway,
as I said in my previous entry, I have a little more sympathy for Laman and
Lemuel than I did when I was younger. That being said, I only pity them to a
certain extent. There’s still a line I draw and refuse to move. After a time, I
start frowning on them more, though I try to refrain from passing final
judgment.
If
there’s one lesson I’ve learned throughout 1 Nephi, it’s that attitude makes
all the difference. When bad things happen, all Laman and Lemuel (and most of
the others) do is sit around and pout, whereas Nephi actually does something
about it. Every time Nephi gets knocked facefirst into the dirt, he just climbs
back to his feet, dusts himself off, and tries again.
If
anything, Nephi has more cause to complain than the whole bunch of them put
together. He can wallow in plenty of self-pity, but he chooses not to. And
that’s why I sympathize with him and admire him the most.
For that
matter, it may come as a bit of a shock to hear Nephi actually criticize
himself in the next book: “Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great goodness
of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O
wretched man that I
am! Yea, my heart sorroweth because of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of
mine iniquities. I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the
sins which do so easily beset me. And when I desire to rejoice, my heart
groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted.”
That was
enough to make me do a double take the first time I seriously read that
passage. “Wait a minute, this is Nephi we’re talking about here? Nephi,
of all people, a man guilty of many sins? Am I reading this right? Is that even
possible?”
It’s
also quite an unpleasant surprise when Lehi gets to the point of murmuring,
enough to where the Lord rebukes him personally.
In
hindsight, however, I appreciate both these moments because they show that
Nephi and Lehi were still human like the rest of us. They both had a long way
to go, so it’s only natural they would stumble more than once along the way,
like a child learning to walk for the first time. It’s not like a baby can just
jump up and start running like the wind, right?
One of
my most favorite movies of all time is The Prince of Egypt. I’ve also
seen The Ten Commandments and I like that one well enough by itself, but
on a personal level, I say The Prince of Egypt told the story of Moses
much better.
In The
Ten Commandments, Moses is pretty much an infallible Superman from
beginning to end. Absolutely nothing can stand in his way, and there’s nothing
wrong with that portrayal of him by any means. But in The Prince of Egypt, Moses
feels a whole lot more relatable. He shows a greater emotional vulnerability,
his relationship with Pharaoh pulls on your heartstrings much harder, he makes
plenty of mistakes but learns well from them, and overall, he goes through
phenomenal character growth. He’s an ordinary man who becomes extraordinary,
and that’s what I love.
To be
fair to Nephi, there’s only so much of his story we can gather in just a few
chapters, since this story alone spans at least thirty years. As a result, a boatload
of details are left out, so it’s all too easy to overlook Nephi’s mistakes and
place him on a little too high a pedestal. But Nephi knows what he’s done and
he could be as hard on himself as we all too often are on ourselves.
Lehi
wasn’t a perfect man by any means, either. They mean it when they say nobody is
perfect. He had an understandable lapse of judgment after a long, hard journey
in the wilderness, but the important thing is he acknowledged his mistake and
repented of it. There’s something to be said for someone who honestly owns up
to their mistakes; even in our day, far too many people will go to incredible
lengths to avoid a modicum of responsibility. It’s a weird form of
self-preservation.
Which
makes that famous scene from The Lion King that much more applicable:
“Oh, yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it
or learn from it.”
Everybody
in Nephi’s family was hurt to some degree or another. There was no way in the
world any of them were getting out of this voyage unscathed. Laman and Lemuel
chose to dwell on their pain and make a useless effort to run from their
problems, and once again, that’s where I stop feeling sorry for them. But Nephi
and Lehi, as well as Sam and Zoram, chose to learn from their problems and
that’s what got them through said problems.
When
Nephi was putting the ship together, Laman and Lemuel just said, “We always
knew you were crazy, little brother, but this time, you’ve really lost
your marbles!”
Nephi,
upon receiving instruction to build a ship, didn’t moan to the Lord, “What are
you asking me to do? I can’t build a ship! That’s impossible!” Instead, he
asked, “Where can I find ore to make the necessary tools for such a
construction?” Already, he was rolling back his sleeves and ready to get going.
And
that, I think, is why Nephi stands out among the greatest Book of Mormon heroes
and most ideal role models. No, he wasn’t perfect, but in due time, practice
did indeed make perfect.